laying here bleeding on a hospital bed
the doctors say that there's something wrong with my head.
they don't know what, and they don't know why,
but then they don't seem to care, cuz i'm not about to die.
pain gauged in numbers and scars on my skin,
i wish that i was out of the situation i'm in.
there's a needle in my back and there's dye in my veins,
but it doesn't hurt as much as the mental pain...
i know it's not my fault, but i'm dragging you down.
i can't remember last time you cracked a smile through your frown.
i spend my life in this room, fake expression on my face.
the medication makes me puke, the food sucked in the first place.
i struggle just to stay awake.
i can't see because my eyeballs still shake.
i won't give up, but i'm about to break...
why must i live my life with this headache?
i never did anything to deserve this...
why can't anyone or anything cure this?
i can't live a day without pain,
i only wish i knew what was wrong with my brain...
it's been going on so long, i quit waiting for the end.
the television on the wall has become my only friend.
i've seen so many doctors that haven't got a clue,
they just increase my dosage cuz they don't know what else to do.
my mind is starting to fail,
i can't remember anything and i feel like i'm in hell.
the pain just keeps increasing,
so far it shows no sign of ceasing.
i struggle just to stay awake.
i can't see because my eyeballs still shake.
i won't give up, but i'm about to break...
why must i live my life with this headache?
i never did anything to deserve this...
why can't anyone or anything cure this?
i can't live a day without pain...
(what went wrong with my brain?)